Today seems to be rolling out as a good day. Hopefully the week stays the same. Coz I definitely don't wanna go through how I felt living through the days of last week -merely existing.

Maybe it's cause I had a good weekend. And plus maybe being part of the celebration over skype made me have something to look forward to even though I was terribly sleep derived.

I've always thought self motivation came pretty easily to me. But last week was enough to prove to me I had been probably wrong about this aspect of me all this while. I really DO need a reason to exist. Something to look forward to when my eyes open in the morning. And it need not necessarily be a person. Just anything, just something will do the trick as to how I feel for the rest of the day. Maybe after all, that's what we are all looking for right. The reason to believe we're meant to do more than exist, in and through life.