I was supposed to address this last night but fatigue got the better of me. Not that tonight is any different. Pardon me for sounding like an old woman, but I really can feel my body weighing down on me these days. My neck issues are not making life any easier.

Alcohol. I used to think at some point in time, a couple of years back actually, I need to draw the line. But of late, I've realised and also thanks to certain controlling factors of the past I figured there is really no time in life. The present is all you have. So, I drink purely for happiness. For that couple of fleeting moments of bliss that life's fking so great. Coz really happiness is the only measure of life for me. No other emotion works. When you're truly happy, I believe you also won't consciously realise it. Only alcohol is able to give me the conscious happiness I'm seeking.

Which is also why I always wonder why sadness, grief, anger etc. hits us twice as hard as happiness. Shouldn't the highs and lows they give me of the same magnitude. Or maybe it's just our expectation. We expect happiness to overthrow the grievances of life and what not. Oh well.