On Sunday, I happened to chance upon a photo from the past. And as filmy as it sounds, tears welled up in my eyes coz I missed everything that was once there among the 4 of us. Dynamics have changed to 2 vs 3 now. I used to look forward to the small pleasures the four walls of home could bring. The times when even going to the market was such a 'happy family' outing. Omimax theaters, bird parks, libraries and everything else. The truly happy times when we didn't need technology to fill in the silences between arguments. I wish I could have held on to my moment of innocence longer and done something about the impending change that was to happen. Though I like the freedom and independence this fragmented situation brings about, I'm actually affected by it. So, I guess, my defense mechanism probably sucks.