The City That Never Sleeps
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posted : May 27, 2010
I have a problem. I always try to give too much and sometimes kill myself in the process even. Not literally of coz. It just gets me disappointed often. But the feeling gives me a high. Plus I know, despite getting disappointed, if I don't do what I want for the person, I won't be able to sleep. To be able to put the people I care before me and make me think less of myself. To decide to let go of my short term desires to make another soul smile just abit more. The feeling's all good till you realise that maybe not everyone, even the people close to you, sometimes even the ones you do it for will not necessarily readily do it back for you. It's not really like I should expect it based what I want to do for them. But it just sometimes makes me wonder why I'm tuned to give more willingly. But for others, it works differently. Maybe things in my life have happened such that I have no qualms about these things. Cause I think nothing is as definite or fluid as happiness. So I tend to value the happiness from friendships more usually. Or maybe it's just about the expectations of each relationship or friendship.
And hard rock cafe reminded me, that there's only one definite. But you and me, I know we share a fake relationship. |
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