joie de vivre

posted : January 11, 2010

Feeling abit lousy. I think it's the school blues kicking in. Semester 6 awaits me in about 12 hours. 5 modules. 2 non-engin modules. Hopefully CAP is pulled up and I discover where my strength lies in.

Had a great Friday night. Caught 3 idiots with 2 other idiots. A wonderful Amir Khan movie. All his movie have such a flare in evoking the most poignant emotions in one as well as getting his ideas, thoughts for India across to his audience. I have truly enjoyed watching some of his works. Laagan. Rang De Basanti. Faana. Taare Zameen Par. 3 idiots. He blends in every character he takes on so effortlessly and yet manages to evoke the necessary emotion. A very simple movie to ensure that human don't become robots churning out sample textbook answers and fufilling their parents dreams of being an engineer or a doctor. Think out of the box. In the most creative, absurd way even. Chase your dreams and follow your heart. And of coz say Aal Izz Well. It definitely has a physcological effect on you and allays your fears. Was interesting also to see so many non-Indians catching the film. After that stepped in Bishan probably for the 1st time in life. Though it wasn't a very succesful attempt to locate Kuo Chuan Primary School I must add. Haha. Headed to 3 monkeys for Kumar show. Had a ball of a time laughing. Nice laughter session to mark the end of the awesome 5 weeks of holidays indeed. Pure R-rated, political, racial jokes. Kudos to the drag queen.

On a side note the obvious had to happen to piss me off. But I tried not to allow myself to get affected and spoil the fun of the night. It always has to be my friends who bear the brunt of their actions and its moments like these which make me feel so helpless coz I'm stuck. They have grown up in such a square way that they don't understand why it is okay to have grey areas in life and allow boundaries to redrawn with time and age. Its ironical to be children of educated parents coz if they were uneducated I could blame education. Now where or who do I point fingers at?

I'm waiting for the day I live on my own. Make my own living. Spend my own money. Cook my own food (if I am able to that is). Do my own laundry. Regret my own decisions. I want to travel alone someday soon enough. I seek that independence for myself. I want to challenge the stereotypes that follow an Indian girl. I want to break away from each one of those.

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