The City That Never Sleeps
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posted : November 3, 2008
A new month has arrived. October is over. Be it the good or bad as speculated within ourselves. 2 more months for 2008 to be over. A month for finals to come crashing on my door. A week or so to the mother’s 50th. Amidst all of this, I seem to be losing myself. I am at ease with my true self only when I am alone this days with food maybe. Thinking, walking, with my ipod plugged in. Probably coz I’m tired of people commenting I have high expectations, weird tastes, periodic moodswings, too emo and all the crap. But yet I still have that small amount of hope that they will be someone out there probably caught in a similar situation. Someone who wouldn’t mind travelling from one end of the island to the other to make a surprise visit. Someone who would take me out for midnight rides. Someone who wouldn’t just spend weekday evenings at home caught up with work. Someone who wouldn’t just light up a cake and leave you alone for the rest of the night. Probably just someone that is different from what I’m already seeing everyday. Its always really the same issues. Finances not in order, broken windows, hanging hinges, unread newspapers, unopened envelopes. All of which can be done with time. But not a scarred heart. Oh well sometimes I just wish I wasn’t born into this lemme think probably jigsaw. Somewhere better I think. Somewhere where emotions are valued more than money. Yes I do value money a lot. And will slog for it. But definitely not before emotions and love. Not before communication. Yes and back to somewhere better. You will never know what is better till you are stuck in the low I guess. So probably that’s why I’m right here. Right now. Living life like this. This maybe cheesy but I really need to meet someone to settle down with soon enough considering a quarter of life has just faded away leaving more tears sadly. I need more memories that I can remember till I grow old and grey. I need more conversations. Probably just one word to sum it all up: disappointed |
look at the stars, look how they shine for you.
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