The City That Never Sleeps
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posted : November 27, 2007
I gave it my everything and yet once the time ran out, the only emotion that ran through me was disappointment. For all the effort I put to master everything within the short and limited span of time, the paper was more than horrendous. Even the questions which seemed straight forward at a glance, proved to be a tussle to solve. Though every time I pray to God to give me the strength to complete all the papers well, successfully, to my level best, this time I just ask for one thing. To give me the endurance not to give up on myself and work for the rest of my papers. It’s somehow in humans to always lose confidence and hope after a bitter episode. We always forget to continue giving the best shot to everything that comes after. We get so caught up with the bitter memories that we forget to think that the future is still ours to create. On the different note, having grown up about 19 years in the family, there are many things I wish to change if I were to have a family of my own and raise my own flesh. Many things. Many say we live in a fast paced society. But are we actually living in such a society or is it that we have created things in such a way that we make everything seem as though a day with 24 hours is not enough, that a day without work never exists. Where is the time to let loose, for family, for deep conversations with loved ones, for everything except work. Yes I do understand the meaning of commitments, responsibilities but what is more important that growing up with your kids with you, for I’m sure you realize your kids won’t be under your care forever. But then again I’m used to living, growing up like that in the world of my own, that I may find it difficult in the future to share everything to another and make him understand what I feel. I’m so used to myself, my thoughts, my loneliness, my peace… The verbal communication I have through typing my thoughts. Interacting with family. Something that normally occurs every once or twice a year. Have relationships gone so fluid? I want to make a difference to my future relationships that I have total control over. And as for now, since I’m under parent’s care I shall go by what is set out for me. But that’s doesn’t stop me from dreaming how my future could be. The possibilities of such enriching relationships and conversations that nurture the soul seem exciting and rejuvenating. “Everybody today seems to be in such a terrible rush, anxious for greater developments and greater riches and so on, so that children have very little time for their parents. Parents have very little time for each other, and in the home begins the disruption of peace of the world.” ~Mother Teresa |
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