The City That Never Sleeps
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posted : August 21, 2007
So many thoughts emotions have been running through me since Saturday. The whole incident keeps playing back on my mind like a broken record. It seemed as if he needed an outlet and I was the victim for that day. So everything ended up on me. It is weird or rather hard to comprehend why the whole thing happened and how it happened. But it makes me wonder a lot of issues. It seems like it created a stark wound in me deep that is almost impossible to erase. I mean only if you go through it you would ever be able to imagine what it feels like. But from what I can say the feeling was terrible almost heart breaking. To not only see him belting me for the first ever time but also to see him go loose without control and virtually breaking down. Its almost like the state as parents you never want your kids or for that matter anybody to see you in for like ever in your life. It can be torturous, tormenting even nightmareish. That bad. Its hard trying to put my life back to where it was on Friday. To piece all the shattered parts together and the same time try to seal all the cracked lines. Its hard. But I’m trying to put it everything behind me and move on really. Take it as a learning point and never let that happen again. 18.8.2007. A bad dream. I want to put it behind and move forward. Its gonna take me time. But I want to create memories that don’t make the wound seem so sore. Life’s all about that. Playing hide and seek with the right things. Emotions. You gotta just learn how to camouflage certain things. Try not to make emotions surface out especially at the wrong moments. Words are hard to even express what I am feeling. |
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