joie de vivre

posted : January 15, 2008

The pressure of singlehood. It will only be when I girl hits 21. For birthday bashes. For social gatherings. For graduation. You need an escort, a white knight, there beside you otherwise you will be the topic of discussion for the night and many more to come. No one seems to realise the responsibilities that encompass an actual relationship apart from the fact you have an escort to such functions. But yeah. It has become a part and parcel of life, which every single girl would have to go through.

On the another note, I was walking past 2 mute people conversing through sign language. This thought has occurred many a times to me but have only managed to pen it down today. The silence in their world. The peace and serenity that fills them. Compared to people like us, who are blessed with every sense, we fill our head with noise from everywhere. From the blasting music from Ipods to construction work going on across the road to loud conversations between people less than a metre away. Ever wonder how it would be like to shut yourself out from all the noise created in the external world. To feel only you. loud conversations between people less than a metre away. Ever wonder how it would be like to shut yourself out from all the noise created in the external world. To feel only YOU. Its hard to picture but if I ever do succeed, it would truly be an experience.

In KANK, there is this line that reads you don’t love, only hate. And I’m feeling like I’m stuck in that situation when it comes to matters pertaining to family. To be frank, I’m not as close and reserved as people think of me to be. From my external physique. It’s sad to know that no one ever seems to understand the love I hold for the unit of family. The significance and importance it brings. But then again time may not permit for you to realise it, if you ever do that is. Sigh. I wish I were not binded by blood relation to people. Coz things would have been much less complicated.

4:57 PM